Straight Edge Life

Only a few people in my life have ever told me that I am beautiful. It feels so good to hear it. Out of all the compliments a person can get, I think this is one of the best. For me it’s the only one that you can’t give to yourself. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder afterall, and saying it to yourself doesn’t carry much weight. Really, what is beauty if it isn’t shared with those around you? Now when I say a few, I mean maybe three in my whole life. It’s not a common compliment for a man to receive.

Last night, beneath the stars and fast moving clouds I heard it again. In an instant I was reminded of how rich this life really is. To be happy and sad at the same time. To feel loss and strength in the same breath. To hear pain and joy together in the same whisper. She told me I reminded her of a song about Vincent Van Gogh by Don McLean.

You took your life as lovers often do

But I could have told you, Vincent
This world was never meant
For one as beautiful as you

It was frightening and flattering to hear. Insight to a man’s soul is not openly distributed, but is known by those who love you the most.

I asked her to help me remember how to enjoy life.