Trust
October 16th, 2003 byI feel so good today I don’t know whether I can trust it. As you all know my life has been a mess lately, and feeling good, especially for a sustained period of time is very unusual. Yesterday was pure bliss; even better than today by a smidgen. Tomorrow looks at least as good as today. Maybe I shouldn’t think about it. That’s probably wise, but idle brain cells are a dangerous thing with a guy like me.
A simple philosophy is probably smart. Life is life… Sometimes it’s bad. Sometimes it’s good. Perhaps if I were shallow like that I’d be happy more of the time? Or perhaps not. More likely what’s happening is that after what seems like a decade of struggling with money, relationships, and family issues, I’ve finally learned a few things, and am finally starting to feel like my head is above water. And what’s this? I’m surprised about it. I guess it’s a good thing to underestimate yourself.
I’ll worry about the flaws in my new guidlines for life later, when they stop working. For now, it’s time to enjoy that life. Take it by the horns.
P.S. Did a search on a dating people who don’t smoke, drink or do drugs. Came up with 17 people with my specific criteria. 17 within a 500 mile radius of Eugene. Sad.