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August 27th, 2004 byI don’t care if I’m understood. I’ve never really cared if anyone got me. I’ve spent plenty of time attempting to explain myself, but that’s not quite the same thing.
But if there’s one thing in this life I wish I got; it’s some sort of understanding of why pleasure and pain are so closely tied. It seems that any time I find tears in my eyes I’m also happy because of something else.
Tonight I scanned images of my mother for my sister who’s doing a project to honor her for my dad. She died on August 31 two years ago and it still cuts close to the bone to think of her not being here today. Many of the images reminded me of good times that I had completely forgotten. It was wonderful to remember and sad to think new memories with her aren’t going to happen.
I guess something like this is always going to be open-ended. How can you find closure when death is involved? How can you find peace when you really don’t have any control or influence on the facts? If there was anything I wish I understood tonight, it is this.