Losing it
October 25th, 2004 byI don’t want to lose myself in my work. Not tonight. This feeling is here for a reason. A legitimate and solid reason that should not be ignored. But I have to work. I am obligated to work. The weight of financial responsibility hangs over my head like a palette of bricks. There is nothing but my own self respect and integrity holding things together. I need to work so that I can change things for the better. Because if I were to let those slide, even for a moment, I would have literally nothing left. And that’s not going to happen. So I’ll have to set this feeling aside once again and cross my fingers. I never thought I would be falling back on faith. I thought I walked away from faith when I lost a few people I loved to cancer and divorce. But faith, faith is what I’ve got tonight.