Straight Edge Life

Kristin Hersh. I can put her on and instantly bring back a million memories of my friend Sara from college. The music makes me feel like I do about so many people in my past. Conflicted. Like I never managed to get it right with any of them. They’re a million miles away, inaccessible and emotionally distant. I don’t feel connected. I get like this when I’m searching for ways to end, and reasons for, this growing feeling on loneliness. Maybe it’s this big old house I’m in. Maybe it’s just a lack of sleep. Maybe it’s more than just friends. Maybe I miss everything. I can’t quite put my finger on it. But I think it’s good to put on Hersh and keep my head above the sand. It’s easy to settle. It’s better to remind myself that things aren’t right. That things need to change. Whether or not I know what exactly to do to make things right. Eventually it will all make sense.