Straight Edge Life

I am waiting for you to come online. Night after night I see your handle shift positions with others coming on and offline. Their clever status messages make me smile from time to time. Never can seem to come up with one of my own.

You never come up to the top. You’re always lost in the middle somewhere. Always grey. Even though you are gone forever I will never take you out of my list. Sitting here, mere inches from where you died, the saddest song in the world, a song that I’ve heard only twice before, plays in my headphones again and again. My world is empty without you. DIrectionless, moving so very fast.

I don’t know if you ever found peace here. I don’t think I helped with that. They say that new birth helps us understand death. Where is my new life? Where is my peace?